{"id":9,"date":"2020-01-05T07:36:53","date_gmt":"2020-01-05T14:36:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/painvalley.com\/?p=9"},"modified":"2020-03-04T20:54:36","modified_gmt":"2020-03-05T03:54:36","slug":"underestimating-strength-with-chronic-pain","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/painvalley.com\/?p=9","title":{"rendered":"Underestimating Strength with Chronic Pain"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Barbell<\/a> <\/small><\/p>\n

Part of my gym membership includes two personal training sessions with the handsome trainer at the gym who seemed nice\u2026until he tortured me for half an hour, that is.\u00a0 I recently took advantage of one of my sessions with the trainer, whom I had spoken to on several occasions while working out.\u00a0 He had given me tips before and he knew about my back and pain issues before the training session, so I figured \u201che will go easy on me, he knows about my back issues.\u201d<\/p>\n

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I was wrong. And I was glad I was wrong.<\/p>\n

He did not go easy on me, not by a long shot.\u00a0 As a matter of fact, after the first exercise, when I was able to catch my breath that is, we had the following brief exchange, before he started counting and I started praying for time to speed up:<\/p>\n

\u201cDon\u2019t overestimate my strength.\u00a0 Remember, I had back surgery.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI know.\u00a0 I have been watching you workout for months.\u00a0 I know exactly what you are capable of.\u00a0 I am not overestimating your strength.\u00a0 Actually, Tracy, I think you underestimate your strength.\u00a0 You are capable of a lot more.\u00a0 You are a lot<\/span> stronger than you think.\u201d<\/p>\n

And that one sentence spoke volumes to me.\u00a0 Not just in the gym, but in life.\u00a0 I took those words to heart and I really have been thinking about them.\u00a0 This happened a few weeks ago and I had to process this for quite a while to be able to write about it.\u00a0 This exchange and subsequent training session has changed my approach to exercise, as well as life.\u00a0 When I stopped and thought about it, I realized\u2026I am stronger than I ever realized.<\/p>\n

In the past several of years my body has been through hell, and yet despite everything, my body has emerged in better shape than ever.\u00a0 Yes, I live with pain.\u00a0 I will always have pain, but, this body that was unable to move at 300 pounds 18 months ago is now considered \u201cnormal\u201d weight.\u00a0 This body can now move, exercise.\u00a0 This body can walk, something I wasn\u2019t altogether sure it would do after the last surgery.\u00a0 My heart and my psyche have also been put through the paces over the last couple decades.\u00a0 I have fought depression since long before I was old enough to comprehend what I was fighting.\u00a0 I have suffered through bullying, heartbreak, divorce\u2026but I am still here, I am still fighting and I am still smiling.<\/p>\n

So, why did it take a stranger pointing this out to me at the age of 34 for me to finally see how strong I really am?\u00a0 Why couldn\u2019t I see that for myself?<\/p>\n

I think there are a lot of reasons.\u00a0 From a chronic pain standpoint, I believe that when you spend a long time being sick and\/or in pain, you are emotionally downtrodden and no matter what you do, no matter what anyone says, you view yourself as weak, because the pain makes you feel physically weak. I also believe that chronic pain and illness also has a tendency to lead to the perception of weakness by others and therefore we begin to perceive ourselves in the same way. From a psychological standpoint, I think the years of bullying, depression and then marital problems had made me unhappy.\u00a0 When you are unhappy it is very hard to feel strong because the tendency is to judge yourself for being sad, even if you are not to blame for your circumstances.\u00a0 Ironically, it is when we are fighting through those most difficult of times that we ARE the strongest, we just can\u2019t see it.<\/p>\n

Regardless of the situation, everyone reading this blog is stronger than they give themselves credit for.\u00a0 If you live with chronic pain and you are getting up every morning and still living, still fighting through the pain, you are stronger than you think.<\/p>\n

When the trainer pointed out that I am stronger than I realize, he was referring to my physical strength\u2026what he gave me was the insight to realize that my strength of character is what is truly strong.<\/p>\n

Photo courtesy of\u00a0Louish Pixel<\/a> via Compfight<\/a><\/small><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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